April 27, 2006
Rent
The movie Rent is on. One of the best lines I've ever heard is from this musical, "the opposite of war isn't peace - it's creation!" This movie is very sad. I can't watch it without crying. It's about the struggle to pay the rent and a tiny little thing called aids.
iTune
Today I bought some songs from the iTunes store. I bought songs from 1976, which was a pretty good year for me.
She said it grieves me so to see you in such pain
I wish there was something I could do to make you smile again
I said I appreciate that and would you please explain
About the fifty ways
She said why don't we both just sleep on it tonight
And I believe in the morning you'll begin to see the light
And then she kissed me and I realized she probably was right
There must be fifty ways to leave your lover
Fifty ways to leave your lover
- 50 Ways to Leave Your Lover, Paul Simon
April 21, 2006
Time Stood Still
This year I graduate. I don't know exactly where I am going after this. I have mixed emotions about graduation.
Time Stood Still
Madonna
Despair, regret, and tenderness
Is what I feel for you
I loved you from the very start
What else could I do
You read my mind, you made me cry
Time stood still
And now I know the reasons why
Time stood still
Maybe you're the next best thing to happen
All the things we might have been
A flame becomes a fading light
That burns inside my heart
And like a castle in the sand
It had to fall apart
You made me laugh, you gave me hope
It's over now
Our happiness went up in smoke
It's over now
April 10, 2006
YOU DIG?
This morning they dug up a tree in North Village. I have no idea why. Here's a pic of the equipment they used right outside my window to to dig out and remove the tree from the earth. Goodbye, tree.
Shel Silverstein
Once there was a giving tree who loved a little boy.
And everyday the boy would come to play
Swinging from the branches, sleeping in the shade
Laughing all the summer’s hours away.
And so they love,
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.
But soon the boy grew older and one day he came and said,
"Can you give me some money, tree, to buy something I’ve found?"
"I have no money," said the tree, "Just apples, twigs and leaves."
"But you can take my apples, boy, and sell them in the town."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.
But soon again the boy came back and he said to the tree,
"I’m now a man and I must have a house that’s all my home."
"I can’t give you a house" he said, "The forest is my house."
"But you may cut my branches off and build yourself a home"
And so he did.
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.
And time went by and the boy came back with sadness in his eyes.
"My life has turned so cold," he says, "and I need sunny days."
"I’ve nothing but my trunk," he says, "But you can cut it down
And build yourself a boat and sail away."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.
And after years the boy came back, both of them were old.
"I really cannot help you if you ask for another gift."
"I’m nothing but an old stump now. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing more to give"
"I do not need very much now, just a quiet place to rest,"
The boy, he whispered, with a weary smile.
"Well", said the tree, "An old stump is still good for that."
"Come, boy", he said, "Sit down, sit down and rest a while."
And so he did and
Oh, the trees was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.
April 06, 2006
Writer
If you didn't write we'd never know
Don't keep it all inside
Each one of us has a road
To which we must abide
April 05, 2006
Ginger Rogers and Fred Astaire
"Cheek to Cheek"
music and words by Irving Berlin
Heaven... I'm in heaven,
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak.
And I seem to find the happiness I seek,
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek.
Heaven... I'm in heaven,
And the cares that hung around me through the week,
Seem to vanish like a gambler's lucky streak,
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek.
Oh, I love to climb a mountain,
And to reach the highest peak.
But it doesn't thrill me half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek.
Oh, I love to go out fishing
In a river or a creek.
But I don't enjoy it half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek.
Dance with me! I want my arms about you.
The charms about you
Will carry me through to...
Heaven... I'm in heaven,
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak.
And I seem to find the happiness I seek,
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek.
April 03, 2006
Hark! I hear an angel singing!
I was driving in my car yesterday, listening to the radio. Matthew was sitting quietly in the back seat. The song came on the radio, Where'd You Go, by Fort Minor. It begins with a woman singing softly, in a high pitched voice. The verse takes over with a man rapping. I sang along to the music and felt really good. I felt sad, too. The song conjured up feelings of sadness, longing, and loneliness.
I listened to my voice. I listened to the singer on the radio. When I stopped singing, I heard another voice. It was Matthew singing along, "where'd you go... I miss you so..." He sounded so much like an angel, I couldn't help but smile.
By Fort Minor
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
You know, the place you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home